My heart breaks for you. 💔 I'm seeing your post and not knowing how you lost your husband. I can't image the stress of it while pregnant. I'm in the US and I'm praying for you. I don't know how things work across the pond, but here a church family to embrace you would be my advice. Stay healthy for that sweet baby. Crying is okay. If you held it in it would be worse for your baby boy. 🙏❤️