I'm praying for you Klara. 2023 will be an excellent year for you. Letting go of your ex and putting him and your daughter into God's hands will bring you the peace you need. My husband is an alcoholic. He was sober for over twelve years but he started drinking again about four years ago. By the grace of God, he hasn't gone overboard. I'm codependent and struggle with falling back to my old ways. It sounds like you may have an issue with codependency too. You may find my memoir interesting and helpful. I hope it's okay to share the link with you here. If you ever need someone to talk to, I'm here. God bless, Cat http://amzn.to/1HQqPze