God bless you for being transparent about your problem. My husband is an alcoholic who got sober, but not until we went to hell and back. God saved our marriage and his life. It's the story I tell in my memoir. I hope you put your entire story down on paper one day. When someone shares how much your book helped them, it means much more than the money it generates. Thankfully, I did pretty well with mine. For every alcoholic or addict, there's a codependent who has enabled them. I hope it's not pushy to share my book with you here. God bless http://amzn.to/1HQqPze ❤️