Beautiful! Thanks for sharing your story. Religion has ruined many people with false doctrines. Finding the right church is so important. I'll be praying for you to find a Spirit filled church that honors the Word and brings you healthy and fulfilling relationships. Hebrews 10:25 Let us not neglect our church meetings, as some people do, but encourage and warn each other, especially now that the day of his coming back again is drawing near. It's important to gather with like minded people. God bless you, my friend.